FYI

White font = I'm not serious
Blue font = I'm Serious

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Poem

Deep inside me, I have a feeling I would be a good poet. I never gave it a chance and I wondered, "why not now?" This poem took me a while to write and I know it isn't perfect. It is only my first and I think I really like writing poems. The words just suddenly come to me; it's similar to having an epiphany. This poem is about a specific person who is a part of my life. I hope you like it and embrace the message in the poem. It really touched me and I couldn't believe that I had written it after I read it over. Here it goes:

Sarah the Naira loved to wear Mascara
But Mascara was from a Christian era.

Sarah found a fish
And made a beautiful wish

With the wish from Sarah
the fish brought an end to the Christian era

What happened next you say
The fish was gay
Sarah and the mascara hit the hay

And Sarah used some coins
this fish ate some pig loins
now a David joins

How did all this end
with sarah and the fish's trend

It's a mascara necklace
David found this reckless

With the christian era destroyed
many chickens found themselves unemployed
So they turned to the steroid
found in an empty void

Sarah the Naira had issues
The steroid chickens were in desperate need of tissues

hamsters were involved
now all of Sarah in Mascara's problems were solved! :D


~No Regrets!~

Why me?

Well it's fun getting threats in my voice mail.   I guess I should be scared or happy.  idk.  But right now I could care less.  I don't hate this kid or have I ever liked them; whatever anybody says this is the truth.   It's getting old how every time I say one thing to/about this person they act like it's the end of the world and I end up apologizing like crazy.  But I'm done.  I'm done talking, apologizing, or even acknowledging.  When I am tired I will kill any one who messes with me, but right now I know what I will do.   I will live my life as if this person never existed.  If I am pushed I will keep walking.  If I am yelled at I won't say a word.  If I end up dead or hurt then I guess I'll have to get someone to help me.   But what is life without it's challenges? without it's enemies?   I never wanted an enemy but I guess fate had a different plan.  It may be hard to overcome the obstacles in my life but I will go down with a fight.  A fight to be left alone for my four years of high school.  Life goes on.  Or at least it does to everyone else in the world.  I Am Not Sorry For Rejecting You. If this person ever finds this you cannot say anything or get mad.  This is just some stupid blog that no one cares about so it's not really that bad.   I wish you would leave me alone forever.

I'm a f*cking dumb person with stupid thoughts and I should enjoy being a teenager ;)

It seems the older I get the worse everything around me gets.  America.  I thought I should be proud of that word.  But what does it even mean anymore these days. A place of fat, lazy, stupid people.  A place where people are killing themselves by food, tanning, and of course drugs.  I'm not saying the rest of the world doesn't have their own experiences with these problems but everyone seems to just take it out on the USA.  And I'm tried of it.  I'm trying to change but it's hard living in a whole world where everything is trying to make exactly like the next person.   People always say my generation isn't going to live past it's parent's generation and that is supposed to help anyone by telling little kids that.  People with money are just lying to this country and most are helpless to resist yet that in itself is not impossible.  Just super hard. Yet there are the few that try to make America a proud word once again.  Just not enough of those kind of people. I'm full from being fed the lies that every person in this country sees on TV. But money is a power that controls many of us and I'm afraid things are only going to get worse before they get better.   I just really want any one who calls out America's faults to just leave us the f*ck alone because yeah we are all the things you say we are.  We already know what we are.  But some of us are trying to change and it's not our fault we live here.  Too young or too poor to leave a place that is falling apart.  Can one person ever solve the world's problems?  I simply answer you no.  So does that mean we all have to die?

Time

I remember in the beginning it seemed like these days would never come.  I would never be 16 or at least I had a long time until that day.  We were all just kids living our lives with fun the only thing on our minds.  Everyone was friends and life was at peace.  But as we all know things change and they always will.  Never being a normal person with no close friends I was clueless during most of intermediate school.  It was a changing period of life and eventually I had figured out what was holding me back from being happy and I did everything I could to come out of my shell.  Maybe I hurt some people but I think everyone needed a little bit of a life lesson back then. Besides I was done letting people using me just because I was the nice fat girl.  7th grade I had so much to learn. Yet I made a lot of mistakes it lead me to strong friendships and enemies (no girl enemies thank god).  The only thing that matters is that I had fun learning from myself and being an idiot. 8th grade was a blur and I don't even understand half of the things we did but I never wanted it to end.  No matter how bad the drama was at least we were in the nice house of phoenix.  No one was mean or a b*tch. :)   Now I am going to miss those days because I don't know what or who to except next year.   I can't waste these next 4 years because these are the moments every little kid dreams of.  To be an adult or something close to it. No matter who tries to stop me from enjoying my life I will never give up.  I've wasted so much of my life that I never want to waste anymore.  Soon I will be done with the next four years and have another 4 years to go but that's a lifetime away.  Isn't it?